A reflection on creative cycles, grief, transformation, and the threshold between old identities and new beginnings. Exploring rebirth, uncertainty, and trusting the unknown through the symbolism of the dragonfly.

The Beauty in Cycles Ending

As I was sitting outside thinking about what I want to talk about today.. a million posts circling through my mind. Some half started in my notes, all still in need of deeper thought and refinement…

I spot this dragonfly floating in the pool.. the glimmers of orange catching my eye… I try to save it, but it’s already dead.

And instantly I’m reminded of the beauty in cycles ending too.

I’ve been feeling a lot of sadness lately. My Fremantle chapter is about to come to a close, I’m moving out of this home in 2 weeks.. it’s the longest I’ve been grounded in one place in yearsss and there’s a lot of grief in that.

I went to watch sunset with a friend the other night.. then ended up back at his place crying.. expressing my fears of what’s to come.

Another Threshold Into the Unknown

Another foray into the unknown. Back out on my own again.

I love travelling. I love seeing the world. I love how alive, vibrant, inspired, and creative I feel..

And theres also a part of me that wishes I wasn’t doing it alone. I have friends all over, plenty I’ll be meeting along the way.

But sometimes I long for MY person.. the partner who wants to come with me on these adventures.. who wants to be part of the business and vision and travel and share it all. I see others who have created this, and I wish for that too. I don’t want the traditional partnership… the get jobs, buy a house, have kids, white picket fence life never appealed… and for so long I thought that meant I was happy being alone and independent.

But something is shifting.

In business. In life. In everything.

I want to do it with others. And I can feel in a business sense that’s happening.. the moves I’ve made.. the coaches and containers I’m part of… the clients I’ve attracted. It’s all with long term vision in mind. So I just have to keep holding faith the other things will arrive too.. if and when they’re meant to.

What A Dream Revealed

And while we're on the topic of symbolism and signs from the subconscious...

The other night I had this dream that police were showing up at my doorstep telling me my business was fraudulent… that I was losing everything.

Which is pretty interesting timing considering who I've just partnered with and the history of how we met. Through a fraudulent affiliate business. And that was the last time I really had big money moving through me.

So it makes sense, this dream would come almost to raise an alarm... bigger opportunities, bigger clients, and bigger visions represent danger because of past experiences.

And it's my fear of going through the pain of losing everything again that has kept me playing small.

I guess that's what happens at the edge of expansion.

Old fears and survival patterns surface. The parts of us that still associate visibility, success, or being fully seen with danger… start scrambling for control.

Maybe this next chapter isn’t just asking me to trust the unknown…

But to trust that I no longer need to shrink myself to stay safe within it.

I guess it's like the dream came to help me clear some of the debris from my psyche, parts of me that are still afraid to truly go all in. To say it's ok to move forward now. And the dragonfly came as a messenger, a reminder that yes it's safe to let the past go.

Dragonfly Medicine & Transformation

The dragonfly symbolises all of this:

— the end of a cycle

— illusion dissolving

— fragility of beauty and impermanence

— a message about transition

— an old frequency dropping away

— reflecting the transformation already unfolding

It’s sitting on my altar now, a reminder of all this chapter has held for me, and there’s beauty in the transformation.

The Chrysalis Before the Flight

I returned to Perth in August, I’ve spent so much of my time here speaking of being in the chrysalis, on a journey of my own becoming, the metamorphosis..

And here we are on the precipice of my time here coming to a close… 9 months (is that a coincidence?!) in my own rebirthing portal… ready to spread my wings and fly into the unknown again.

Reborn. Transformed. Trusting I’ll always fly.

Is it significant it also matches my brand colours? Obviously!